Category Archives: performance

an IQ actualization day

the year 2017 ends today and i thought to post an actualization story.

one morning late last year while leaving my farm to head into town, feeling elated at the elated state of mind from nootropics that morning, i was on the phone with my brother and described my elated state of mind then thought to ask him an actualization question.

what would you do today if you discovered you’d awaken with an IQ of 200? he paused long. “well i’d start doing the things i’ve dreamed about. starting a new career, earn well, finish school, and enjoy my time staying at home.” ok i said. what if you awoke to an IQ of 170? another long pause guess he was imagining where this was going. “well hmm… basically the same. start a new career and go to school”. then i progress to ask him about awakening with an IQ of 150, 120, then finally with the IQ he currently has. mind you, i’m an ardent critic of the nature of means by which an IQ test is administered but it remains a basic assessment of our accumulated knowledge. “ya i guess it’s the same answer”. by then i asked him “so… why aren’t you doing that now?”.

we both laughed it off but the philosophical implication remains stuck like an alien creature attached to my brain. why aren’t i doing that and why doesn’t everyone? it’s been over a year now and i think i found a simple answer aside from the typical response “well i got stuff to do today…” kind of response. the answer for myself is to decide options today based on principal. as a Taoist seeing the value of my day as decisions i’ve made when my head lays to rest is germane to my thought DNA. small decisions based on principals i’ve adopted, as basic as they may appear, form small action steps working toward long term personal goals and shape a purpose to my being.


fixes for a fear of public speaking

Guarana to help alleviate a fear of public speaking?

Guaranasuppose you can take this anecdotally, it works for me and that’s the only evidence i have. i’m now trying to figure a schedule to consume Guarana 400mg to go along with my daily nootropics. by shear dumb luck after my San Diego AirBnb fellow roommate Greig handed me a few OTC supplements of Guarana, i discovered Guarana 400mg in particular helps to me to overcome a fear of public speaking. however, as a developer happy to be introvert, Guarana 400mg helped to deliver progress on daily morning team scrum meetings. Guarana at 200mg was barely below threshold. i’m on a vigil for some neuroscience news to back this up 🙂 but for now i’m running with it.




Inderal (as Propranolol)

wow! things have changed the past decade when the only suggestions were typified by the response of a friend co-worker professor “take a shot of vodka” – i did just this on one contract site and it almost cost me the job from a performance hit especially as daily scrum meeting are early morning. a Google search for “medication fear public speaking” popped-out Inderal as a top forum favorite.

from Medication for public speaking phobia?,

Propranolol (beta blocker) works great, has very little potential for abuse, is safe, and is inexpensive in the generic form. I use it a couple of times per year when I have to give a presentation. Works like a charm for me. Atenolol is another option and is very similar to Propranolol. I would stay away from benzodiazepines (such as Valium, Xanax, Klonopin, and Librium). posted by alex1965 at 8:41 AM on June 18, 2016 [2 favorites]